questions?

Lately Ive been questioning everything, my own capability to my future. Then I have been looking back and questioning what went down.

Did I make the right decision when I cut myself off from the personal situation at hand? especially when i thought it was to protect me?

What if I let it play out? What road would it lead us down?

I don't know if i had made the right decision. I don't know if I want to go fix what i thought i did not break.

: X the charisma is gone?

It used to be so simple to chit chat. talk. i guess it has changed. i second guess myself, in the capability to talk.

I always knew how to strike up a conversation.
but now it seems harder and harder to do.
especially with the person i want to strike it with.

its something that needs to be addressed and werked on quickly.

:)

i feel giddy as a girl. Date i think went well. I see a second in the the horizon.

I AM COOL!

anywho, this weekend seems to be looking good right now because of the date. it brightens my week up.

i end this entry with:

NERRRRRRRRF WWWWWWAAAAAAARRRR
thank you

DATE

i got me a date tonight! i am so excited. and nervous. We are going out to eat and stroll on the boardwalk. cant wait. :) :)

this weekend

I have A LOT to do tomorrow with the DC trip and degrees. Plus i would like to start and finish on some English paper. I will be running on empty for quite a while. I hope i don't blog to much about time management haha. Its just an important topic for right now, learning how to balance time is a fundamental tool that separates us from the rest of the animal kingdom.


tomorrow:
1: DC trip plus degrees
2: ENGLISH PAPER
3: write up rules for nerf war
4: read for psychology
5: sleep

food for thought:

music choices:
1: A day to remember- gets you pumped and ready for the day... my cup of coffee
2: chiodos- makes u wanna sing with the dood
3: fall of troy- makes u wanna jam

to much, to much

Things are piling up for me. Work, school, demolays and i am trying to create a little personal life. haha. Its like juggling, sooner or later one thing is going to fall. I will say that school or demolays will be the ones that wont fall. I told myself long time ago that those things wont get sacrificed especially because i took the challenge. I don't know what will happen in the future but things will change.

Things to look forward to:

UNDEROATH concert
CAR UPGRADES
DEMOLAY EVENTS